Fuck all the people who aren’t there for me actually. I don’t need anyone who doesn’t need me. Not here for me through my failures you sure as fuck won’t be standing next to me during success. Go hangout with all your fucking boyfriends cause they’re all so god damn important.. Bitches.
It fucking sucks that I’m a 17 year old senior in high school and I feel like everyone’s got a clue but me. Not a fucking idea how I want to spend the remainder of my life. Who knows what I’m going to want when I’m 30 or what I’ll be doing. Frankly I think the worst part of senior year is the fact that I thought I had all of my friends by my side and come to find out all the people I thought were my best friends, hell even the people I just thought were my friends don’t give a fuck about me. None of them even talk to me. I walk around and feel completely alone and fucking invisible and there’s nothing I can do to change it. I feel like my life has no meaning and I’m useless and just a waste of space, a fuck up, a pot head. Is this how everyone feels? Am I crazy? Why does everyone else look like they’re having the time of their lives and I can’t even bring myself to get out of bed anymore without fucking wishing I didn’t exist. Why doesn’t anyone like me and why does high school FUCKING SUCK